I WAS LUCKY

Everytime is potty time for my angel. Whenever she visits me in my dream, she would always ease herself...either on me or on her cloth bed. This is what she has been doing all those times, she gave me an appearance. So, yesterday, while going to bed, i was disturbed by her loss and was thinking about all the goodtimes that we shared together. She would bite me hard and burst into laughter, as soon as i start crying. Earlier, this would put me in a rough mood, as i was not patient and sometimes, i have shouted at her. But oflate, i started enjoying all that she enjoys to do... so i deliberately offer myself for those longlasting bites and see her happy all the time i do it. All these thoughts linger in my mind when i am awake and alone. Even when i am in a company, i can be alone to myself with my angel.

Tossing on the bed for a comfortable posture, i was talking to her.. Calling her back to me as life is meaningless and dull and dead, etc., without my angel. Tears started peeping out of my eyelids. Not intended to disturb my already half asleep husband, i wipe it silently and lie next to him. Soon one after the other, thoughts started pouring in and i was into a kind of meditation....taking me deep into nostalgia, every minute. Finally when i was in a deep state of conversation with her, she appeared, as usual. Tall, slim, beautiful, curly haired, smiling her charm. I am with my parents, sister and husband, with my little one on the floor. She is easing herself in her style of lifting her legs to the abdomen... poo-pooing she wants me to kajol her and i do it as i wish to .... due to some uneasyness, she is clinging on to my waist very tight, and i ask my sister to check whether she is pottying again. To everyone's amusement and relaxation, my naughty passes wind with some stress.



Fresh from the shower



Father's pet..is that you???

Meanwhile, i ask my mom to check whether my dad had readied the water for her as she usually bathes in lukewarm water. My dad is checking the same in the bathroom, while my angel asks "தாத்தா வெந்நீர் போட்டுடாள்ளா? "  All present at home is dumbstruck as we never expected her to reciprocate what she has heard and would speak back !!!!! I am proud of her that at this young age she is able to understand conversations and give a reply to it. We all are very happy that her brain is functioning like any normal child, that she is able to form sentences and questions too. Soon she gets down from me and walks into the bedroom, wearing a white nightdress (shimmi). I call her to stop her from proceeding towards bathing,"டி Manasvini, நில்லுடி அம்மா வந்து உனக்கு நன்னா எண்ணெய் தேச்சு குளிப்பாட்டரேன்"  to which she replies "நானே குளிச்சிபேன் மா".  I am dumbstruck as she has grown up this big, that she can manage a bath on her own and talks very mature for her age. She has grown so tall now, to the height of a 5-6 year old child for her age of 2 years. Looks more beautiful than ever. Smiling always at all those she meets. Uncombed frizzy and curly hair. I love her a lot, especially her legs, which she must have incurred from her dad.

P.S. : Chutty we are expecting you in our lives at the earliest. Please do come back to us in your same appearance and qualities, which i think no other child can match in this whole world. LOVE YOU PATTU PAAPULI :)
Yours lovingly,
amma :)